hey how're you ? hahaha so sorry because of lately post. Hmmm, wait, did you miss something? exactly not only something but so many thing I've not told you. okey step by step I'll try to explain. But yeah, hope my flash signal OK so I can type soooooo fast :)
1. my anniversary 14months with ARIZ
you know what, it's really surprising me. for your information, at the first time I had a relationship with him, I only predicted It was just around 4 months or maybe until 6 months. it's because we are so far away between 2 islands sumatra and java. Thanks God, It didn't happen and now we're getting our 14. Alhamdulillah..
mmh, I LOVE HIM truly deeply :)
2. new lesson
I can't explain more about it so sorry because it's my secret but I'll tell you the important point.
it's about my new lessons, I got this new lessons from so many persons, ariz, my mom, my dad, my friends (ua and mbak amii), they taught me so many thing. such as :
ariz : you taught me not to be a weak person. I must run to get what I want. remembering about the 'tarik-manarik' law. you also give so much spirit the huge spirit I've ever gotten :)
thank you so much my dear (you're not only as my fiance but also as my brother)
my mom : always pray for me nonstop, mom you know I love you really really love you the first person who I'll hug if I can reach my goal. mother I'm noone without you who always help me to be someone.
my dad : he always help me with his way. sometimes I can't understand what the purpose is but, you can push me to do it and make me know what the meaning is. I'm so sorry sometimes I feel upset of your command or I grumble if you ask me to do something. NOW I'll DO whatever you'll ask me to do because I know it's only for my happiness :)
ua and mbak mii, I can't say what they said to me fully but, they always teach me in thousands way.
ua : sometimes I don't understand what you think, but really you're unpredictable. you have so many unusual thing, do you know something? I often feel angry if you act like childish (for example : when you sit in front of me, you always raise your hand, DON'T YOU KNOW that I CAN'T SEE anything in the whiteboard because of your hand ??). but beside that, you have many special things. You are an artist (you can make a beautiful poem, and I can't understand). You also have a different point of view (sometimes, I feel you're an antagonist) but.. you give me lessons from what you said :)
thank you ua :)
mbakmii : my second sister. thank you for everything dear, your maturity makes me feel so comfortable to share with you. one word I'll always remember from you "do not let you tears fell down only for unimportant things because in the next life we'll get so many big thing which is more proper and harder than now"
for you, I know you can face your problem dear. although sometimes you think it's too hard but, I know it just your suggestion in fact YOU CAN solve your problem perfectly and clearly, for that boy who always hurt you, trust me God will give him the heaviest reply. amin amiin :)
for all person I've told above, I'll say thank you I'm so grateful for having you guys :)
3. new me
it's part only for me, for telling myself.
I don't know what happen but I know I have my new me. Since I talked with my mom, I realize I must change my habit. I must make a new changing. I really believe that only me who can alter my destiny.
I know to be success I must pay dearly. Of course it's not witj money but with effort.
therefore, I must have a big spirit !
spirit to be a new me. .
spirit to change my life . .
spirit to raise my goal . .
and spirit to be A SUCCESS person . .
yeah, that's a lil bit thing I wanna share with you guys. I can talk to much because 'less talk do more' that's a nice quotation rite ?
heheehe :p
by the way, you must know something I have a new habit now.
WRITING POEM .
fucking crazy rite ? hahaha
I don't know why but maybe I was infected from my boyfriend's habit.
this is one of my poem (still bad)
aku sayang dia
dia yang selalu memanjat salju hatiku
dia yang menjadi segelas teh hangat dalam lelapku
dia yang selalu menjadi manisan hatiku yang kelu
dia yang selalu berusaha menanamkan benih semangat hidupku
tapi, lihatlah aku...
aku yang tak pernah bisa...
aku yang selalu gagal,
menjadi buah dari benih yang ia tanam
menjadi subur dari bagian yang ia siram
menjadi mahkota dari emas yang ia punya
menjadi air untuk api yang menyerangnya...
kesadaran itu membuka mataku,
dan aku yang selalu gagal ...
1. my anniversary 14months with ARIZ
you know what, it's really surprising me. for your information, at the first time I had a relationship with him, I only predicted It was just around 4 months or maybe until 6 months. it's because we are so far away between 2 islands sumatra and java. Thanks God, It didn't happen and now we're getting our 14. Alhamdulillah..
mmh, I LOVE HIM truly deeply :)
2. new lesson
I can't explain more about it so sorry because it's my secret but I'll tell you the important point.
it's about my new lessons, I got this new lessons from so many persons, ariz, my mom, my dad, my friends (ua and mbak amii), they taught me so many thing. such as :
ariz : you taught me not to be a weak person. I must run to get what I want. remembering about the 'tarik-manarik' law. you also give so much spirit the huge spirit I've ever gotten :)
thank you so much my dear (you're not only as my fiance but also as my brother)
my mom : always pray for me nonstop, mom you know I love you really really love you the first person who I'll hug if I can reach my goal. mother I'm noone without you who always help me to be someone.
my dad : he always help me with his way. sometimes I can't understand what the purpose is but, you can push me to do it and make me know what the meaning is. I'm so sorry sometimes I feel upset of your command or I grumble if you ask me to do something. NOW I'll DO whatever you'll ask me to do because I know it's only for my happiness :)
ua and mbak mii, I can't say what they said to me fully but, they always teach me in thousands way.
ua : sometimes I don't understand what you think, but really you're unpredictable. you have so many unusual thing, do you know something? I often feel angry if you act like childish (for example : when you sit in front of me, you always raise your hand, DON'T YOU KNOW that I CAN'T SEE anything in the whiteboard because of your hand ??). but beside that, you have many special things. You are an artist (you can make a beautiful poem, and I can't understand). You also have a different point of view (sometimes, I feel you're an antagonist) but.. you give me lessons from what you said :)
thank you ua :)
mbakmii : my second sister. thank you for everything dear, your maturity makes me feel so comfortable to share with you. one word I'll always remember from you "do not let you tears fell down only for unimportant things because in the next life we'll get so many big thing which is more proper and harder than now"
for you, I know you can face your problem dear. although sometimes you think it's too hard but, I know it just your suggestion in fact YOU CAN solve your problem perfectly and clearly, for that boy who always hurt you, trust me God will give him the heaviest reply. amin amiin :)
for all person I've told above, I'll say thank you I'm so grateful for having you guys :)
3. new me
it's part only for me, for telling myself.
I don't know what happen but I know I have my new me. Since I talked with my mom, I realize I must change my habit. I must make a new changing. I really believe that only me who can alter my destiny.
I know to be success I must pay dearly. Of course it's not witj money but with effort.
therefore, I must have a big spirit !
spirit to be a new me. .
spirit to change my life . .
spirit to raise my goal . .
and spirit to be A SUCCESS person . .
yeah, that's a lil bit thing I wanna share with you guys. I can talk to much because 'less talk do more' that's a nice quotation rite ?
heheehe :p
by the way, you must know something I have a new habit now.
WRITING POEM .
fucking crazy rite ? hahaha
I don't know why but maybe I was infected from my boyfriend's habit.
this is one of my poem (still bad)
aku sayang dia
dia yang selalu memanjat salju hatiku
dia yang menjadi segelas teh hangat dalam lelapku
dia yang selalu menjadi manisan hatiku yang kelu
dia yang selalu berusaha menanamkan benih semangat hidupku
tapi, lihatlah aku...
aku yang tak pernah bisa...
aku yang selalu gagal,
menjadi buah dari benih yang ia tanam
menjadi subur dari bagian yang ia siram
menjadi mahkota dari emas yang ia punya
menjadi air untuk api yang menyerangnya...
kesadaran itu membuka mataku,
dan aku yang selalu gagal ...
